Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Compete -- Competitve -- Competitiveness -- Competitor

That's the word we're gonna used for today's post. What's with those words? You all might be thinking negatively, right? Look at the bright side, please?

Kita semua ada perasaan ni. Perasaan ingin berjaya. Dalam arti kata lain, cemerlang, nak berjaya and want people to see you. Raikan dengan orang tersayang kejayan you tu and bla, bla, bla. That's it?

Ada sesetengah orang, take it easy with those bullshit, pun masih berjaya, celebrate tapi in good manner. Bukan dengan tunjukkan sikap competitive, competitiveness and being one of those competitors to compete. C'mon, studying is not a battle field where you need to work hard to by killing everyone in front of you just to get that flag to show the world how you success. Macam kau main dota,  nak compete dengan competitor semata nak increase MMI  kau. The fuck? What's the point? Satisfaction? Macam tu? Tunjuk kat orang kau pun boleh.

Well, my dear reader. It's not a fault that you wanna compete. But do in a civilised way. after all, we're civilised people, right? So, act like one. I'm getting scare (me - myself) when I see one of my classmate yang competitive gila bapak ahh. Seram dho. Kau tahu seram? Aku taktahu apa kau buat but you show it off directly kat semua orang yang kau boleh score dalam semua subject after all aku tahu kot cara kau belajar macam mana. You're studying like a crazy maniac untuk compete? So, kau nak DL jugak? Macam tu? DL tu rezeki dho. Kalau Tuhan redha, kau dapatlah. Kalau Tuhan istidraj pun kau akan dapat jugak. Tapi kalau Tuhan kata belum tiba masa, belum tiba lah masa kau dapat DL tu. Haihh.

Kau ingat dah DL seronok? Bapak ahh, nak maintain tu susah gilaa kot? Kau ingat orang DL tu semua seronok ke? Haihh. Aku belajar, aku berkongsi. Bila kita nak berjaya, kita berjaya sama-sama. Bila kita nak berjaya, kita diam sorang-sorang, tu nak jadi apa? Lepastu nak kata tu usaha kau and you worth it? Tu selfish, bangang. Serious shit, aku rasa memang takde orang yang nak berkongsi bila sentuh bab berjaya semua ni. 

Here's my personal opinion. Deep down in my heart. 

Belajar untuk masa depan. Bukan untuk compete atau sebagainya. Atau kau nak orang pandang kau tinggi and puji kau sebab kau dahagakan semua tu? Kau bagus kat software, kau bagus kat handling hardware, those expertise that you have takda kat semua orang kot? So, apa yang kau rasa lacking and competitive sangat?

One best way to study well is that maafkan semua orang and kau pun kena minta maaf kat orang. Jangan sakitkan hati orang. Jaga bahasa. Kalau kau sendiri tak jaga, then jangan ask Lord kenapa kau berusaha like a maniac tapi Lord belum grant you - your success. Pandang belakang semula dan lihat apa yang kurang. See what's lacking. Kau sendiri dah sakitkan hati orang pastu tak minta maaf. Kat makwe boleh lak minta maaf. Merayu-rayu bagai. Cb betullah !

Aku buat post ni bukan sebab irihati, cemburu apatah lagi nak downgrade kan kau. It's just that belajar kerana Tuhan dho, bukan sebab nak compete. Haihh, serious shit memang aku goosebump gila and scary-shit bila tengok kau macam ni. Obsess in winning. Obsess in everything. Aku ni serious-shit tak expect pun DL dho. Pastu DL aku sikit aje pun. Sebabtu aku segan nak bagitahu orang. Kau misunderstood lak ingat aku riak ke apa ke. The fuck?

Kau tengok aku sem lepas pun aku ada study hard, work hard ke? AKu study tak smart jugak, work pun last minute jugak. Totally, don't be too obvious, bro. And jangan bila kau dah struggle, kau terus letak  harapan tinggi dapat result bagus. Sometimes, when you've worked hard, it doesn't mean it worked on God. Sebab tu dalam Islam ada pasrah and redha semua. Rezeki masing-masing. Aku ni ramai aje member aku ANC, DL, and siap study kat oversea lagi weh. Tapi aku tkde lah competitive nak mampus macam ni dho. Maigadd. Kerja group berkira jugak. Hehhh.

So, today, I would like to raised hand to you Lord because making me stay humble and do not forget where I came from. And I would like to put my head as below as I can (sujud) just to thank you for giving me this gifts as I know how to differentiate good people and the bad one. After all having your hijab's limitation open, is not something that worse.

Here's something to ponder --

"No matter how good you are, Lord knows what's good for you".

The end.