Hi,
Semua orang struggle. In fact, aku tak mention pun hanya aku yang struggle macam nak mampus.
Aku try hard untuk pleased-kan hati parents aku.
Aku try hard untuk pleased-kkan hati social-mate aku.
Aku struggle untuk achievement.
In the end..it was all wasted. Lol.
Kau tak nampak apa aku hadapi sebab sebesar mana pun kau hadapi, tak sebesar masalah aku.
Aku tak kata masalah aku mengatasi struggle orang lain.
Just..kau dan aku berbeza.
Aku tahu family kau macam mana. Kau tak tahu family aku macam mana.
Even when we're in the same room, on the same bed, you heard me crying..
But..there's a certain time I wouldnt tell you why.
Nampak dari luar happy..tapi?
There's always but..
I'm struggling w/ my 23, I'm struggling w/ my feelings, I'm struggling w/ my emotion and indeed..
I'm struggling the way I wanted to live.
I don't have anything to offer but I need to act like I'm the head of family.
You see? You see..when I mentioned head of family, can you imagine how big the responsibility is?
Do you go back and forth from SG-MY?
Do you cook when you come home?
Do you put dressing on the table for your parents?
Do you take care of your parents..like how they feel when they're lonely?
Do you accompany your parents to mosque?
Do you accompany your parents to recites?
Cook their breakfast, lunch, dinner?
Do you prepare them bed story when going to bed?
When they complaining they're lonely...and wanna go here and there..do you entertain them?
Do you have money problem?
Do you provide the kitchen, toiletries, and maintenance?
Do you have troubled managing your pack schedule w/ your parents fulfillment?
Do you know how it feels that you wanna socialize but your responsibilities bang it?
Do you? Do you?
There's a lot actually but..I'm not legit to jot it down here.
Just..I ask..to understand me.
I won't always 24/7 be there for you but I'm always taking care of you from a far.
I'm not letting you alone.
If you ever need me..anytime..just put the phone on the line, I'll be there.
It's just a matter of time.
I'm not vanishing but I'm trying to work on my life.
My life isn't easy.
Please understand me.
Regards,
Aisy.POSTED BY " Nooraisyah Nadiah " ON " 24/03/2017 @ 3:16 pm "
